I love her.

Biscuit & Zman, December 2004

Both kitties went to the vet today. Biscuit because we’ve caught him winded and wheezing, probably due, says the vet, to the fact he may be allergic to the xmas tree pine needles he’s been chewing on.
Zman, my cantankerous and sweet seventeen year old cat, probably has cancer. I knew this was coming, but have been putting it off because I know some very hard decisions are in the future. She’s had a small growth on her breast all year, and it’s finally gotten rather large. The vet says he can’t imagine the biopsy will come back benign, which breaks my heart. She’s been slowing down in so many ways, and she’s started losing weight, I just don’t know if you should operate on a kitty this old. She’s nearly eighteen. Today she got xrays, and he didn’t see any other tumerous masses, and she’s got general bloodwork coming in on Monday, at which time he’ll know what to recommend.
I’ve been with Zman my whole adult life, I got her a few months after I moved out of the house when I was eighteen. She’s my angel and has been through so much with me.
My heart is breaking.

9 thoughts on “I love her.”

  1. I’m so sorry about your Zman. It’s such a hard thing to go through. I understand. 🙁 She has obviously had a wonderful, love-filled life and you should be proud of that. I hope you feel better soon, and I wish you the best.

  2. Aww… Poor kitty… I know how that goes.. My one ferret got a toumer in his face and i had to put him down or he was going to starve to death…
    I’ll pray for you and Zman, hopefully, when she does go, it will be peaceful.

  3. I hope the test results for Zman come out ok. If not, just remember all of the happy times that the two of you had together. You’ve been there for her as much as she’s been there for you, and I’m sure she’ll accept whichever decision that you make.
    My own cat is not doing well, she’s my best friend and I’ve had her for nearly 16 years (since I was 8 years old), and she’s been through the hardest parts of my life with me. We’ve grown up together, and it hurts that I’m losing her, but at the same time I don’t want her to go through any pain.
    I think it’s a blessing that Zman and Biscuit get along so well. I think perhaps it’s Zman’s way of saying “It’s Biscuit’s turn to watch over you now”.

  4. It’s so hard to lose a beloved pet. I’ve been through it many times, and it never gets any easier. All we can do is love them for the short time they grace us with their presence and hold on to the memories they gave us forever…

  5. I’m so sorry to hear about miss kitty-kat. It’s always hard to loose something you love. I rember when we had to put our cat Mitsy down because she was blind and could barely walk up the stairs. I promised myslef I wouldn’t cry but when we were putting her to sleep I cried so hard.
    But atleast there is a chance for your kitty even if she is old. I mean doctors work of 80 year olds and they live atleast another ten years! So keep up the hope ane treat your kitty to lots of dried fish and romps in the kitchen.

  6. Oh I’m sorry to hear this! Pets are so important and special and it’s terrible when we lose them. Though 17+ years is a long life and I’m sure it was unbelievably fulfilling for her, you’re lucky to have had so much time together.
    I don’t think it would be appropriate to have surgery though. She is aged and it may end up doing more bad than good, as far as stress and comfort go, this is a hard decision and I hope you can decide on something that you can be comfortable with.
    I lost my kitty Foofer (yeah yeah I was like 8 when we got her) after 11+ years, I was a wreck – I still think about her a lot and miss her every day, but I’m happy and thankful to have my Herbert West and Sam Loomis who, goonie kitties that they are, totally rock.
    There’s no replacing a pet but at least we have memories right?

  7. I’m sorry to read about you cat. I know how hard it must be to face having to lose her. I hope all turns out well with her tests. I will keep my fingers crossed for you and Zman.

  8. Zman’s lucky to have a mom who cares about her so much – I read the post above, how surgery might be the best option for her, and I’m certainly glad that you’re feeling better, now that you realize that what she has can be treated. Listen to Mr. Kallisti – she’ll make it through!

  9. I’m so sorry about Zman. I have a boy kitty named Pita who is the same kind of cat as Zman, so it’s especially heart breaking to read about his condition. I’ll pray for him.

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